I mentioned in my first post that I tried basically everything to achieve loss of control very rapidly.
But before digging in to that, I’d rather start with what we who desires incontinence regards as the bible: Yes, you guessed correctly; The 12-month-diaper-program. In the beginning I studied it intensively. I was aiming for loss of control of my bladder, not bowel, as I figured lack of bowel control would obstruct me from continuing a “normal” life, yet diapered life. What I did do and still does, I’m pushing fluids whenever I have the chance and remember it. I also try to remember not to clench after I went in my diaper, and stay relaxed, staying relaxed all the time is actually a lot harder than what most people think, and I still need to focus on it. Especially if I gets really focused on a certain task, that being on my job or at home, I know I’m still having the old habits of clenching, up, though it has gotten better, and a lot of times, I just wet without having felt anything in my bladder.
In my first years in my diaper training, I kept having an active sexlife, and masturbated a lot in between, I had and still does a lot of kinks, not related to diapers. Girls, boys, trans, FLR, dominance cuckold and so on (Not anything illegal or violent) but just plain hot action between consenting adults just to be clear on that. I also had a male lover for a short while, exploring my bisexuality. But that’s an entirely different story and not really related to this. Just to let you know, I’m pretty open for a lot of stuff.
I think somewhere in my second year, my active sexlife started to decline, I think partly due to me being in diapers 24/7 which took away some of the impulsiveness often referred to as a “Quickie”. I wasn’t really missing an active sexlife; it was too vanilla so I resorted to masturbation. I believe the frequent masturbation resulted in an unexpected strengthening of my pelvic floor and my external and internal sphincters. Completely counterproductive. So here comes my recommendation, don’t do it. I did continue masturbation, but differently, I began rubbing myself through my diaper, and got relief that way for a very long time. Actually a lot more effective and quicker than conservative stroking, and resulted in no mess, it all ended up in my diaper.
Anyway, early in my diaper training I remember reading about people who used Foley catheters for extended time to shrink their bladder capacity to more or less nothing. Obviously, I was intrigued by taking that route. Because when I first started out, not only was my bladder control incredibly strong and able to hold a lot, add in a shy bladder which contributed to my extreme bladder control. So yes, I became really acquainted to flooding my diapers on several occasions, resulting in massive leaks. There wasn’t a diaper which where able to handle my outout back then. So partly into my first year in my diaper (incontinence) training I bought several different Foley catheters and let them leak directly into my diaper. That was not an idea I can recommend, I got several infections. Also a lot of very painfully bladder spasms, from the balloon poking my bladder wall. So eventually after a period of 6 months or so, I skipped the catheters. I was back to square one, starting all over, you know, drinking plenty to force frequent wettings, staying relaxed.
Slowly I started to experience some progress….my output volume started to decrease, frequency began to increase, greatly attributed by fluid pushing. Urgency started to come out of the blue. My shy bladder was still evident, because in a lot of situation it was like my internal or external sphincter simply refused to budge, and I was experiencing a screaming full bladder. Still to this day, I’m experiencing a shy bladder, though it is slowly declining, thank god.
To be continued…………….
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