I must admit looking back, times does fly by, fast! it has been six years since I took the life changing decision to start wearing diapers again. six years of not being dependent on toilets, never worrying about peeing myself. because I’m protected by a lovely diaper.
The life style change was easier than anticipated, yes wearing and using diapers again full time, only this time as an adult, does require some changes. A healthy life style at least for me, has been mandatory. I still want to fit into regular clothes, despite wearing a bit more bulky and absorbent underwear.
All in all, it has been way too positive being diapered again, control has declined, I’m wetting way more frequently, and with less volume. I do get strong urges to urinate, coming out of the blue, but again, only small volumes. The tell tale signs of urge incontinence and OAB, and I love it! I do believe, at this stage, that I’m truly diaper dependent, because I do wet myself, without prior notice if I get distracted, if I feel a bit stressed or upset, just as I notice I’m also dribling pee a lot more, not much but enough that I do require some sort of protection.
Bedwetting, well honestly I don’t know if I’m wetting in my sleep? and I have long ago stopped focusing on it, if it happens – it happens, and I’ll be all joy, if not, well then it’s not in my cards. Albeit I do wet in bed, but I’m usually slightly awakened by my bladder, and then just go in my night diaper, and drift back to sleep again, shortly after. what I have noticed and which may be an indicator that something is happening at night, is in the morning where I usually had a bursting and very full bladder, is not changed to a bursting bladder, but not much output, meaning I must wet in my sleep, or am I? One reason that I don’t know if I’m wetting in my sleep, is because my diaper is always wet when I go to bed – sort of reinforcing my mind, that it doesn’t matter whether it hold back og release during sleep, I’m wet anyway.
Diaper habits, I have a fairly large amount of cloth diapers and cloth diaper boosters. Just added more double terry pull up diapers to my inventory. Reason is, a disposable diaper always leak when lying down, whether it’s on my sofa or in bed. And there are times where I must admit, I’m a bit lazy and don’t bother diaper up properly for night time, that is pinned on cloth diapers and rubberpants. I’d rather just stay in my disposable diaper and just add my terry pull up diaper and my rubber pants, and then off to bed, almost as good protected as if it where regular cloth diapers. Wearing a disposable also gives me the freedom to poop, if I need to, without too much cleaning and staining of my white cloth diapers.
Yes, pooping in my diaper is something fairly new thing, and since I’m quite regular, I usually poop in my diaper in the morning, while drinking coffee, and then shower afterwards. However being able to just lift slightly and let it out, means I exercising my pelvic floor even less now….which may contribute to my little control being left, may all be gone, eventually.
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